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Post by mistakes on Jun 23, 2018 5:03:31 GMT
I’m hurt and confused now...
I saw the FA (he might be) ex online for an hour, I can’t stop assuming that he is chating with friends... but he didn’t speak much to me, he said it was because I ask him personal questions that he didn’t like. But even if I chat with him about games, etc, it wasn’t long chats neither...
My mind couldn’t stop thinking, was all just a lie to me? Was it me that he just didn’t like chating with? My friend said that for me living a better life that he does might have been the reason that made him uncomfortable, which made things worst, because I’m trying to build my self esteem, knowing that what’s good about me is the reason why he treated me unfairly?!
The little girl Inside of me is conflicting, one hand I’m glad that he is happy and have friends that he could talk to m, on the other hand I feel helpless that it was me that he didn’t want to talk to...
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Post by tnr9 on Jun 23, 2018 11:18:01 GMT
Hey mistakes....is there a way you can disconnect from him for a bit? Not necessarily unfriend him, but is there a way you can make it so that you don't know when he is online? Our brains look for patterns and if we grew up with a scarcity model (there was not enough..love, attention, time etc.) then we will tend to think that if the attention is not being given to us..surely it must be going to someone else when we do not have anything to back that up. APs are especially sensitive to feeling "disconnected" from someone we care about. I will say that it is a bit of a leap to go from..he did not seem interested in communicating with me to mean you were not important to him. He could have been tired, or busy or distracted. What I would suggest doing is spending some time with your little girl...at her age, everything is personal...so validate her feelings..and then, let the adult part of you gently remind her that you don't know why he did not seem to want to talk..but likely it had nothing to do with you.
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Post by mistakes on Jun 23, 2018 14:55:42 GMT
Thank you for helping me to understand myself better^^ the most painful part was to see myself not wishing the other person happy... spending time with self sounds like a healthy way out for self soothing^^
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Post by mrob on Jun 23, 2018 17:37:43 GMT
The best thing I did recently was to turn chat off. I haven’t had notifications on for a long time, because I’d be stopping all day, but turning chat off gave me peace of mind. I couldn’t tell when others were on, and they couldn’t see me, either.
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