Intergenerational trauma

Example
When I was a child My mother told me I was fearfull. 
I was at the hospital alone when I was two years old, but nothing was wrong with me.
When I got older, I was fearless.
Then I became fearfull again after I had children

My Grand father participated in the first world war. He saw his brother killed infront of his eyes on the battlefield.
He never became himself again.

One of his children became bipolar after She had her third child. My grandfather found her hanging in a rope in the attic 

My own mother was always worried and afraid and closed off from her feelings towards her children.
She was worried about the Americans, she was afraid of the Russians 
She was skeptical about immigrants and refugees coming to our country 
She was afraid about non-christian people 

She and my dad were always struggling financially 

I have also been struggling financially myself with my own company, being alone with 3 children ect.