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Post by bedlam71 on Feb 5, 2018 3:58:07 GMT
...is I don't know what the truth is. The saying "I love you" and barely spending time with me. The inconsistencies. The lack of looking inwards and taking responsibility for your role. The stonewalling. It's really hard to believe you cared, let alone love me, even though you have never wavered in saying you loved me. How you can go weeks, months without talking to me, seemingly unscathed. You continue your life with your family and friends even though those relationships have no real emotional connection and mostly acts of service so you can get the validation that you are this kind, reliable, loyal person. You're 51 years old and you still hide behind your mother and your job. You have the emotional intelligence of a teenage boy. You have been physically sick half your life because of anxiety And trauma, yet you don't want to do anything about it. All you had to do was come towards the middle and be consistent. You will never find another me and that is truly your loss. For someone that says they fear losing me, you sure have an odd way of showing it. You are my past now and the past is gone. It's all a dream now.
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Post by ocarina on Feb 5, 2018 7:40:26 GMT
...is I don't know what the truth is. The saying "I love you" and barely spending time with me. The inconsistencies. The lack of looking inwards and taking responsibility for your role. The stonewalling. It's really hard to believe you cared, let alone love me, even though you have never wavered in saying you loved me. How you can go weeks, months without talking to me, seemingly unscathed. You continue your life with your family and friends even though those relationships have no real emotional connection and mostly acts of service so you can get the validation that you are this kind, reliable, loyal person. You're 51 years old and you still hide behind your mother and your job. You have the emotional intelligence of a teenage boy. You have been physically sick half your life because of anxiety And trauma, yet you don't want to do anything about it. All you had to do was come towards the middle and be consistent. You will never find another me and that is truly your loss. For someone that says they fear losing me, you sure have an odd way of showing it. You are my past now and the past is gone. It's all a dream now. I don't think there's an answer to this and yes it's absolutely maddening - but you do get to choose whether you love yourself enough to tolerate this behaviour. We all have a choice - we can't decide what other people do with their lives but we do get to take control of our own if we choose. |
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Post by mrcamper on Feb 5, 2018 14:46:14 GMT
The YOU is coming out. Your identity is coming out.
Believe in yourself.
If your heart tells you somethings wrong, then some things wrong.
As Richard grannon said on YouTube look at their actions, not what they say. Heir actions.
Let YOU come back.
Look at gal 5:22 if that helps.
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