Post by kristyrose on Mar 3, 2018 22:11:15 GMT
Hey everyone,
I'm realizing I need to plan more activities for myself for the weekends. I have my friends to see and they are great, my family is about an hr away, but my parents trigger me sometimes so my friends are mostly my family.
i did end up seeing my ex last night, we had dinner and went back to his place so he could pack for a solo weekend trip. We had some wine, listened to music and I ended up spending the night with him and dropping him off to catch his bus in the morning.
I always feel empty when we aren't spending extended time on the weekends, it's slowly becoming less frequent as I can feel him pulling away a bit more in a effort to "move on". Of course if I were initiating this, I'm quite sure he'd be chasing me, all of it is pointless.
I have been ruminating on the fact that he wants to date others and that perhaps he will meet someone this weekend as he went with a group on a bus tour.
Does it matter? No. He doesn't want to be with me and I need to move on and be with someone who does.
I guess posting here just keeps me honest with you all and myself. I try to go NC and it's hard and I end up caving, if I say goodbye to him now, I will be massively triggered, I just feel trapped. I feel trapped and very sad that he doesn't love me.
I'm realizing I need to plan more activities for myself for the weekends. I have my friends to see and they are great, my family is about an hr away, but my parents trigger me sometimes so my friends are mostly my family.
i did end up seeing my ex last night, we had dinner and went back to his place so he could pack for a solo weekend trip. We had some wine, listened to music and I ended up spending the night with him and dropping him off to catch his bus in the morning.
I always feel empty when we aren't spending extended time on the weekends, it's slowly becoming less frequent as I can feel him pulling away a bit more in a effort to "move on". Of course if I were initiating this, I'm quite sure he'd be chasing me, all of it is pointless.
I have been ruminating on the fact that he wants to date others and that perhaps he will meet someone this weekend as he went with a group on a bus tour.
Does it matter? No. He doesn't want to be with me and I need to move on and be with someone who does.
I guess posting here just keeps me honest with you all and myself. I try to go NC and it's hard and I end up caving, if I say goodbye to him now, I will be massively triggered, I just feel trapped. I feel trapped and very sad that he doesn't love me.
