Depression gone once we broke up

It is far too soon to tell, because we officially broke up like 4 days ago, but it was in consideration for almost a year. However, I think I'm no longer depressed. I was depressed for about a year.. maybe I'm shock, but I don't feel like I am. I feel like I'm myself again. I'm an AP, he is a DA. He still messages me, I find that strange, but it keeps me from moving on. Even with this realisation I want him back, but I also on the other hand don't because I know it's better for me to be single and pursue my dreams. He is really hot, smart, brave, confrontational, traditional, religiously works out, loyal and likes to smoke weed (important lol). I feel like I won't find that many others like him. His personality - entj, like Elon Musk. FMLLL 

But I'm better, just sucks feeling like I lost a jewel. 

We both love each other very much, but only end up hurting each other.