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Post by krolle on Oct 23, 2021 4:29:09 GMT
Thankyou
I have another opinion to ask you ladies. I'm very interested in what input you might give.
I think I'm gonna be pretty ballsy with my laying out of the boundaries. If she is wishy washy about meeting or says she's not available the times I suggest. Then do you think it will be a good thing if I just say straight up I'm fed up of her disrespecting my effort and it's her call to arrange a time or I'm out.
I know laying out of firm but flexible boundaries is a secure thing. But I'm not sure how firm and direct I should be before it becomes insulting or a turn off kind of thing. I know the sticking to the consequences is what makes them count. Even if it's painful.
I'm mostly asking for the perspective of hearing it as a woman. You often hear from people that it can be a good thing to be pretty bold and assertive and women appreciate that. But I'm not sure if that's just pick up artist crap or a genuine thing. So what's your opinion on how assertive/ballsy is good in this situation? what would garner respect vs just being a dick.
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Post by alexandra on Oct 23, 2021 5:40:38 GMT
Presumably, you're already telling her why you'd like to see her (to discuss dating more seriously) so that it's clear and not a surprise. Follow that by telling her you'd like to meet in the next week (or whatever specific timeframe), and that X and Y times would be best for you. That should be all you need to do.
At this point, you're trying to communicate clearly, figure out what's going on, and potentially (re)build trust. If you both approach it as a power struggle, none of those things will happen. Trying to force her to meet you where you are when she's partway-to-mostly withdrawn out the door isn't going to help.
If those times don't work for her, and she does want to have the discussion with you, it's a social norm for her to respond with a different time that works better... if she's not being responsive or working with you to schedule a time then you actually have your answer.
I know you're afraid she'll be wishy-washy and you'll be waiting in limbo, but if that's what she's doing, then it's an answer in regards to if you dated more seriously she won't break the pattern she's already acting from. What you've seen so far is what you'll continue to get, and it's not helpful to pursue something that's inevitably going to stay an unhappy roller coaster. Trying to change up the game by "enforcing strong boundaries" in this way now won't help you, because you're only posing these boundaries to get a specific reaction from her. Healthy boundaries aren't to get a reaction, they are to communicate your needs, observe if the other person responds in a way that respects them, and then decide what to do next with the additional information. She can't keep you in limbo if you're not keeping yourself in limbo trying to see hope (rather than avoidance and the limit of the capacity she has for your relationship) in the inconsistency.
I think advice on being really ballsy is usually toxic masculinity stuff that preys upon insecurity. Women do want decisive men who can be consistent and handle their own $hit, because they want to feel safe and secure. That's the kind of masculine space that's a positive thing. But, again, once it becomes about dominance and a power struggle for its own sake, it's not going to lead to emotionally stable and healthy outcomes. And, in the future in case you're dating other people, emotionally unhealthy people are the ones more likely to respond positively to overly aggressive men because it activates their own insecurities. Women who are unconsciously primed to respond to it by their earlier life relationships are the ones who will. More emotionally mature women probably won't tolerate it. So... it can depend on the type of situation you're looking to attract and build as well. And if you're looking for an equal relationship or one that isn't as balanced (and I recognize there are cultural considerations in that as well, but I'm speaking from the perspective of a woman who wants an equal partner).
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Post by krolle on Oct 23, 2021 8:44:44 GMT
Thankyou Alexandra. That makes total sense. And very eloquently written as usual.
I think what I'm trying to do is indeed play games to some extent, or be tactical. But not for the usual power struggle reasons. It's to try respond in a way that her pre-insight reactions might respond to well. I know she knows 'something' is wrong, and is in therapy for it. But I think she is just doing some of the generic self esteem and CBT type stuff. Like me she is early on in the journey but trying to adress it. As you very astutely pointed out with shocking accuracy we were likely emotionally attracted because we are in similar stages of personal development. I think there's only the vaguest awareness of AT. And I'm not sure she's ready for me to just reel out everything that's 'wrong with her' in that context, the same way I wasn't. I know you can't date potential. But she has demonstrate a real desire to put in the difficult emotional work and seems to be on the path. Just a bit later than me, and still unaware. When she would stay over at my place she would be very expressly interested in all the books we discuss here. My stuff on co-dependance and AT etc.
I see some things quiet obvious now in her that she is oblivious to but I'm not sure it's the time to so starkly point them out without any prior knowledge. I can see her brain working hard to try figure out stuff the same way mine did/does. But I also want to give her the chance to show she might be able to show up in a way that's respectful for me by communicating in a way she might receive well. I think that's what I'm getting at with asking you how bold to be. In agreeance that she is certainly insecure, but really wanting to be less so, and on the cusp of insight.
The example here with boundaries is that I have noticed she has a very poor idea of what they are, and how to communicate them. And this is related to the people pleasing and a very hard time saying no. She also basically completely disrespects me because I am very flimsy in my own boundaries. And I have not yet communicated them to her. Perhaps to a secure person it might seem natural to say it's not ok to be an hour late or to flake several times. But to her I think she just genuinely doesn't know, at least consciously. I think one of the reasons she downgraded our "situationship" is because she was putting way more in than she felt she was getting back, and had no idea to communicate that to me, or that it would even be acceptable to do so, and so resentment festered under the surface as I emotionally held back to protect myself and didn't give quiet so much.
I'm aware it's not my job to fix her, And trying to avoid the temptation. Nor do I see myself as her better because of it. But I can tell she is frustratingly close to discovery and it's worth at least trying to communicate. Even if we just end up being aqcuiaintainces eventually.
Like attracts like in terms of security as we've discovered. I'm not yet secure, but I'm not willing to tap out of dating. So this is what I'm working with currently. Early awareness, slightly secure women are likely going to be my dates at this stage. Indicating there's probably more unavoidable, but growth inducing pain to come.
So I guess my question is more about me, how do I communicate my boundaries in a way she will listen to and not just go into defence or avoidance. At least until such time as we can just talk openly about things that take a little eye opening to accept. What are some pitfalls I might avoid when communicating them? for example I assume I should avoid being condescending or patronising. Or openly hostile. I suppose I'm also trying to say I don't know what is the difference between assertive and obnoxious. I am after all a people pleaser too still. Just less so than I used to be.
I guess Im trying to be secure enough to pull her in the right direction a little and give us a chance to hear each other and grow. But not so secure I dismiss her as unviable as a romantic prospect yet. If I do that, part of me has to accept that I am unviable as an insecure. And that's quiet hard to accept.
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Post by krolle on Oct 23, 2021 8:57:00 GMT
my brain is also starting to understanding I must look after myself.
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Post by alexandra on Oct 23, 2021 9:49:52 GMT
Presumably, you're already telling her why you'd like to see her (to discuss dating more seriously) so that it's clear and not a surprise. Follow that by telling her you'd like to meet in the next week (or whatever specific timeframe), and that X and Y times would be best for you. That should be all you need to do.I still stand by this as the right tone, krolle. It's short, simple, and direct and asserts your expectations and feelings without actually demanding anything of her. She has the choice to respond and engage, or not. There's no ultimatums or threats or surprises, it's a simple but strong message focused on what you'd like to do. Specially if she's indeed FA, then when triggered they can get more easily confused from being overwhelmed (as you probably already know). In that state, I've always failed when trying to approach things with a lot of words. They can't process it and may just shut down. I think getting her to be open to a conversation in person and not overly guarded when she shows up is your goal here. You can talk about other areas you feel you weren't communicating well about once she decides to show up and if she says she's actually willing to work with you towards being more committed. If she doesn't actually want to show up or feels coerced, she won't be open and receptive to hearing what you have to say anyway because she'll be too defensive.
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Post by krolle on Oct 23, 2021 13:08:52 GMT
Presumably, you're already telling her why you'd like to see her (to discuss dating more seriously) so that it's clear and not a surprise. Follow that by telling her you'd like to meet in the next week (or whatever specific timeframe), and that X and Y times would be best for you. That should be all you need to do.I still stand by this as the right tone, krolle. It's short, simple, and direct and asserts your expectations and feelings without actually demanding anything of her. She has the choice to respond and engage, or not. There's no ultimatums or threats or surprises, it's a simple but strong message focused on what you'd like to do. Specially if she's indeed FA, then when triggered they can get more easily confused from being overwhelmed (as you probably already know). In that state, I've always failed when trying to approach things with a lot of words. They can't process it and may just shut down. I think getting her to be open to a conversation in person and not overly guarded when she shows up is your goal here. You can talk about other areas you feel you weren't communicating well about once she decides to show up and if she says she's actually willing to work with you towards being more committed. If she doesn't actually want to show up or feels coerced, she won't be open and receptive to hearing what you have to say anyway because she'll be too defensive. I certainly agree that is likely the secure action. But I predict an unfavorable reaction without the assertion of consequences, not for manipulation, but so she knows what's at stake. She will simply say she can't make that time I'm almost certain without stating consequence bluntly. Because she knows there have been no consequences to her flaking previously. It's safer for an FA to dissapear or avoid under pressure if there's no consequence to doing so. Then maybe A week after I have checked out and gone no contact she'd reach out or something most likely to see if I'm still available. Would you not say I could avoid that process by stating where I am at in terms of consequence right now?
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Post by annieb on Oct 23, 2021 13:15:11 GMT
I didn’t read it all, but I would not analyze so deeply. I was kidding before; but I’m not kidding now. This is not your mother, you do not need to power struggle a love out of it, so to speak. And you do not need to fix her so that she would love you. I’m sorry to be so blunt. This is a separate completely different woman you can have a relationship with and someone you can interact with as an adult. I hope that it by essence helps your secure mindset, that it’s out of your control how she will react. It’s only in your control to lay your own cards on the table.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 23, 2021 13:16:29 GMT
I don't think that this has to be put as a challenge with consequences.
I have found that representing myself well works just fine. As in "It's really important to me to be able to make a plan and stick with it, out of respect for your time and mine."
What you get after you have clearly stated your preferences and needs will be informative as to whether or not you two can vibe well.
No manipulation, threats, power... just you doing you and taking care of yourself, while also providing a willingness to be accountable for plans and have respect for her too. win/win
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Post by Deleted on Oct 23, 2021 13:19:13 GMT
Secure , easy, respectful relating isn't confrontational or edgy, it's cooperative. So if you cooperate with yourself (know and name your preferences) you give her an opportunity to cooperate or not. It starts with clear communication internally (what's important to me?" and then externally "here's what's important to me".
At the same time you can be sensitive and curious about what is important to her, ask, and have the general tone of "can we work together on this to make us both feel at ease?"
It's a team thing from day one actually.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 23, 2021 13:25:04 GMT
Oh! and as far as what women like, I can describe what I myself like. When my boyfriend is assertive and ATTENTIVE at the same time, by stating what he proposes and checking in with me to see if I like it... it feels like we are dancing and he is in the lead but as my partner, not my director. Sexy.
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Post by krolle on Oct 23, 2021 13:28:31 GMT
great advice.....sigh
I just know from personal experience as an an FA I will push the boundary as far as it will go to not commit to almost anything emotionally difficult in advance, without the threat of genuine abandonment to rein in the avoidant behaviours.
Only when the sobering thought of genuine loss hits home do I actually take the time to value someone. If there's no threat of loss they're almost guaranteed to be subconsciously taken for granted perpetually.
I know I don't control her, nor would I try. But that doesn't mean I can't influence the outcome by my own actions. Isn't that the nature of free Will?
I really do value the advice. And I'm not trying to disagree on this occasion. Just integrate my own experience as an FA.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 23, 2021 13:32:02 GMT
great advice.....sigh I just know from personal experience as an an FA I will push the boundary as far as it will go to not commit to almost anything emotionally difficult in advance, without the threat of genuine abandonment to rein in the avoidant behaviours. Only when the sobering thought of genuine loss hits home do I actually take the time to value someone. If there's no threat of loss they're almost guaranteed to be subconsciously taken for granted perpetually. I know I don't control her, nor would I try. But that doesn't mean I can't influence the outcome by my own actions. Isn't that the nature of free Will? I really do value the advice. And I'm not trying to disagree on this occasion. Just integrate my own experience as an FA. Well, since you're aware of that it CAN be an opportunity to discipline yourself in a new approach. I've done that a lot to get to where I am, functioning pretty dang well in a loving relationship. I do understand your nervous system grabs the reins. I experience that as well. But- do the best you can do until you can do better. Again, all a process. But seeing what you would like to do vs what you tend to do- that is educational and gives you something to shoot for, work toward. it's like a puzzle. One piece at a time.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 23, 2021 13:33:36 GMT
So really, I think you're doing the thing we all di- pointing a finger at her unreliability and unwillingness to commit to a time when it's actually something you struggle with. You both do. Again, educational. You're doing fine.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 23, 2021 13:41:02 GMT
I wouldn't get into anticipating her responses- although it's clear what you're doing is also anticipating your own responses lol. You are resistant, as she is.
In my opinion, the way forward is do the next secure thing and let the chips fall where they may. If you can reasonably determine what the healthy action would be, just do it and let life answer you. This has been the way to grow for me, at least. And it's putting in practice the actual behaviors , replacing the mind games with solid secure ways of being. Let go of the predictions and foretelling and just do your part.
You don't know if it will be HER that can respond in a healthy way, ans you won't be trying to get her to. But someday, you keep doing the healthy thing and a healthy woman will respond and be able to keep step. It starts with you being the leader in your own dynamic.
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Post by krolle on Oct 23, 2021 14:18:34 GMT
I want to believe you so terribly bad. But my personal experience is so deeply ingrained. You are right that I cannot know her thoughts and reactions. And must accept I cannot fully control this situation.
It's just so difficult to discount what I would do. What I almost always do. What almost all FA's I'v ever met mostly do ( and many ADHD ers, which she has said she is likely. Only value when there is a real threat of loss. It's the shock, the adrenaline that gets our attention. The sudden pattern change. The boldness.
While someone is meek and they do not strongly activate my arousal in one way or another they will usually be just part of the periphery. And not significantly payed attention to. As long as the threat is not too much as results in a freeze. I am really starting to think about the connections with ADHD now. The need for strong stimulus to motivate action. And too much resulting in shut down.
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