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Post by kristyrose on Jan 30, 2018 2:13:00 GMT
Hey everyone,
Sitting here just thinking about my ex.
I've noticed a pattern, I wake up OK, fill my day with work and tasks but as the day wears on and still nothing from my ex, I find myself getting so sad imagining him dating others and my inner abandonment issues kick in.
I also start ruminating on how I cannot understand how he can go from "dating me" for 2.5 yrs and so seamlessly want to start seeing others. He told me he has never carried on with an ex this long and in this way- he always has space between relationships, (mind you I do not carry this as a badge of honor, just literally do not get it) and that he never really wants to be friends with an ex.
So I'm trying to figure out wtf is going on! I know this is fruitless, but just being real and venting.
He ALWAYS comes back after stonewalling, but i fear that he won't his time despite knowing its for the best anyway. Just feeling so upset and confused by him.
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Post by madamebovary on Jan 30, 2018 2:36:19 GMT
I’m so sorry KristyRose. I understand this and these feelings. My DA and I have only been seeing each other 10 months but the connection was instant, we both talked about how we’ve never clicked with anyone so fast and so deep. The physical just enhanced the mental. When it was good... it was glorious. And when you’re by yourself, mulling it over and over, you’re always thinking “what if, what if, why can’t he just... “
I have nothing to offer but understanding and hugs. Hang in there.
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Post by kristyrose on Jan 30, 2018 3:11:15 GMT
Thank you Madame. I appreciate the support and kind words.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 30, 2018 3:52:11 GMT
(((((Kristyrose)))))
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Post by kristyrose on Jan 30, 2018 4:12:10 GMT
THANK YOU TGAT!!
Ya know what I did? I cleaned the shower drain, had a good cry and feel better. Now I'm going to vacuum, haha!
Whenever I do a good clean to my apartment I feel much better. :-)
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Post by Deleted on Jan 30, 2018 4:15:42 GMT
The nights are the worst. I had night sadness too when we first broke up. I feel for you kristyrose. I hope it gets easier for you as the days wear on.
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Post by kristyrose on Jan 30, 2018 4:17:48 GMT
Thanks very much Mary.
Yeah, the nights are just the worst! I used to go out A LOT just to avoid my feelings, so this time it's much healthier to cry and clean drains than drink wine with buddies and ignore my feelings.
I hope your nights are much better now! :-)
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Post by Deleted on Jan 30, 2018 4:20:14 GMT
THANK YOU TGAT!! Ya know what I did? I cleaned the shower drain, had a good cry and feel better. Now I'm going to vacuum, haha! Whenever I do a good clean to my apartment I feel much better. :-) nights are the hardest, because that’s when we are tired and have tried to keep things at bay all day. it catches up. but knowing that, i go to bed earlier and it’s just one day at a time, time really does heal if you use it well. i am stacking up the days and glad to have you guys around  |
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Post by kristyrose on Jan 30, 2018 4:21:41 GMT
Ooh that is a GREAT idea. I can adjust my bedtime which will only serve me better anyway.
I always apply the one day at a time, even hour by hour rule and that helps tremendously! that and definitely you guys. :-)
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Post by madamebovary on Jan 30, 2018 4:22:54 GMT
The nights are the worst. I had night sadness too when we first broke up. I feel for you kristyrose. I hope it gets easier for you as the days wear on. Oof... that’s so true. That’s when I drink too much wine and text too many emotional things... thankfully I have deleted all his emails and texts so I don’t do that “rereading his messages over and over” thing. That’s always SUPER fun and uplifting. 😑 |
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Post by kristyrose on Jan 30, 2018 4:30:07 GMT
Good on you Madame for doing that!
I haven't been able to, but definitely do not look at any of it. Most of it is quite formal anyway, which honestly I found endearing, it is a part of who he is. Very polite at all times, so when he'd let his guard down it was fun and nice to see.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 30, 2018 4:32:31 GMT
haha i delete a text conversation as soon as it is over!
no revisiting at all.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 30, 2018 4:33:25 GMT
even when involved.
written records are for the birds lol
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Post by kristyrose on Jan 30, 2018 4:34:42 GMT
even when involved. written records are for the birds lol LOL I can appreciate that!  |
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Post by Deleted on Jan 30, 2018 4:45:28 GMT
g’nite Kristyrose,and remember... when we’re old and gray we won’t remember it at all.
We’ll be like... “what was his name? what was that idiots name? “. 😂😘
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